Over the past two days, I’ve been attending a Standard First Aid, CPR, and AED course. During the introductions, everyone shared what they were doing, their work background, and their experiences. When it was my turn, I bluntly said, “I am jobless, and I’m not really sure why I’m here.” I couldn't help but feel different from the others.
As the trainer went on to explain the roles and responsibilities of a first aider, my mind started wandering. I found myself thinking selfishly, wondering if I would even use these skills to help anyone outside of my family. In fact, I imagined a situation where someone collapsed in front of me, and I would just pretend to be a bystander, not wanting to get involved.
It’s strange, but my mind often jumps to these negative thoughts. It feels like no matter how hard I work, good things don’t come my way. For example, I worked part-time at a polytechnic and did my best to impress both my clients and colleagues, even earning praise and recognition. But when the next month came, I found out I wouldn’t have any part-time slots available. It feels like a harsh reminder that even hard work doesn’t always lead to rewards.
Right now, it’s easy for me to feel like nothing is going my way. The negativity takes over, and it’s hard to shake off the doubts and frustrations. But I know I’m not alone in feeling this way. It is ok to go through moments of doubt. Everyone has their own struggles, and it’s important to keep going, even when things seem uncertain.
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